Twenty years ago the
first girl became lost
Somewhere between
O’Neils fields and the frost
Her footsteps could be
seen so clear in the snow
Away from the village to
where no one would go
Beyond the farm house,
and far past the fence line
Beyond all that O’Neil
swore “is all mine”
Into the woods where
nothing ever was found
With nothing to see
but bare trees and cold ground
The village searched,
sobbed and accused
As rage bought them
nothing and hearts slowly bruised
And days became weeks
and weeks became longer
And the memory of the
girl grew fainter not stronger
Silently they agreed
to let no feelings show
But hold their pain
deep and there let it fester and grow
Until one frosty
morning it just came to be
That the image of the
girl no villager could see
Her parents were
workers and by working each day
They forgot the pure joy
of the girl gone away
And life carried on as
life always will
With no remnant
remaining, just long winter chill
Then seventeen years
ago the second girl became lost
Somewhere between
O’Neils fields and the frost
Footsteps were clear
and easily traced
She’d walked from the
town with no soul giving chase
She’d walked away in
the depths of the night
Out of their homes and
out of their sight
And as the villagers
searched, sobbed and accused
They felt familiar
pain in their hearts once more bruised
And this time as they
searched a boy aged just six
Saw the old scarecrow
of torn cloth and sticks
Saw its head tiled now
on one side
Saw it turn just so
slightly with a smile open wide
He saw one stick arm
raise one branch to its lips
And he saw old decay
blow just one kiss
The girl not found remained
unreturned
And the children were
berated, why could they not learn?
Stay in your homes,
don’t leave don’t take risks
They were tucked warm
and whole, warned and then kissed
And time did its march
and inched forward once more
And feelings were
locked up for certain and sure
Had her name been
Suzanne? Or Airdrie? Or Jane?
No matter, no mention,
it would not happen again
Then fourteen years
ago the third girl became lost
Somewhere between
O’Neils fields and the frost
Footprints again marching
out in the snow
While people slept at
home with coal fires aglow
While people slept
deeply eyes closed on the world
The village of Reigns
End lost its third girl
The villagers were
furious and afraid and irate
Hammering new fences
with and a barricade gate
They defended instead
of searching afresh
They defended the
north, then the south and the west
They built walls from
rocks and dirt and wood
And declared the village
sealed closed now for good
Then the boy, now aged
a strong wiser nine
Crept to the field
beyond the fence line
He skulked to the
scarecrow frozen and still
And felt afraid and
uncertain and bitterly ill
The scarecrow in
moonlight was a shadow and form
Unmoving, uncaring and
tattered from storms
“Where is she?” the
boy asked and the scarecrow remained
Not speaking or
winking, completely unchanged
“Where is she?” he
asked and kicked at the figure
Who whipped up its head,
as its smile grew bigger
Its eyes blinked wide
open and his mouth was a leer
“The girls are all
gone long ‘way from here”
Its voice was a hiss
of hoar’s frost and death
And the boy smelt sewerage
and death on its breath
The boy ran screaming
and collapsed to his bed
Where memories became
nightmares and nothing was said
For a week he was
feverish and pale and near departed
More stress on a
village so oft’ broken hearted
Then temperature
dropped and appetite returned
But of what he’d seen no
parent or friend would learn
For as with the grief
that the town rushed to subdue
The boy submerged his
encounter and believed it not true
Seven years passed
this time before a new girl was lost
Somewhere between
O’Neils fields and the frost
O’Neil was long dead
and his son moved away
But the fields were
O’Neils so the town’s folk would say
A new church had risen
and farming had changed
And people had moved and
homes rearranged
Old fears were
superstitions neither founded nor real
And light and base
fact left all things revealed
The girl simply vanished
just as with the others
Walking away from her
family and her two baby brothers
No traces, no signs,
no hope, and no sight
Just there during the
day and then gone to the night
The villagers were
solemn and sombre and stoic
With no act undertaken
be they cowardly or heroic
They mumbled and trod
and gave heed to a search
But they never
mentioned loss or acknowledged hurt
And the boy now
sixteen huddled deep in his home
Afraid to go out and
face things alone
He knew the scarecrow
was in O’Neils field yet still
Turning its head with
its slashed mouth and ill will
He knew it was waiting
and abiding aware
But he just could not
move, just would not dare
So the year passed and
stained the boy in shame
And he hung his head silently
absorbed all the blame
And the village
continued and never spoke of the loss
And the village
returned to winter and frost
Then just three years
past, the boy now a man
Turned to the fields
able now to understand
The woods were no
danger, just the thing in the field
The thing that one
winter had malice revealed
The boy now a man with
girls of his own
Who he watches each
night and never lets alone
The boy now a man with
a mans pain and remorse
And a mans intent to
alter an ill fates course
And the boy now a man
married to a wife he adores
Who he loves as he can
despite his hearts flaws
And the woman his wife
sees the shadows in his eyes
And waits each night for
him to speak ‘ere sunrise
But each night he is
stoic and silent once more
And she loves him as
is but hopes for yet more
And the man he wakes in
darkness at one
With the earth hard and
icy and far from the sun
And he hears a creak
on the stair and see’s a child of his own
Stepping in her sleep to
go away from his home
He leaps from the bed
and snatches his axe
As his girl steps out
side leaving bare footed tracks
He shouts her name but
she yet does not hear
Just walks away
surefooted and into his fear
He pressed into the
wind that she does not feel
And slips and trips on
the ice at his heal
She draws away as he
screams for her to wake
Past the boundary and
the farm and the old rusted gate
He staggers and weaves
and screams to the night
Please let his girl be
alive and alright
And in a shaft of the
moonlight he sees now revealed
The scarecrow there waiting
no longer concealed.
Colossal, eight
legged, with its body hunched low
Its many eyes all
ablaze with hatred to sow
Under its body are
gathered webbed sack like pearls
Each sack containing
bodies of the gone away girls
The scarecrow was
hunched like a predator hunting
Straw mouth and straw
throat growling and grunting
The boy now a man now
a father stood resolved
And called to the
daughter his heart longed to hold
And the village behind
him finally awoke
Lit torches as remorse
and denial finally broke
They surged to the
field and the man with the axe
And the girl walking
closer to the loss and the black
And with his village
now with him the mans bravery grew
And he stepped to the
creature as a bitter wind blew
The eyes of insanity
and night and despair
Met the eyes of a
father filled only with care
The man raised his axe
and the scarecrow raised limbs
And the axe swung wide
as the creature roared at him
And the daughter she
stopped and turned to her Dad
Seeing him enraged and
frightened and screaming and mad
And she looked to the sacks
so close now to hand
She blinked her eyes
clear and could now understand
It was on the town’s
grief that this the creature it fed
Not on the girls gone
away and long believed dead
She could see through
the webbing to the girls inside
Breathing so slowly these
white webbing dressed brides
And she turned to her
father and hoped that he knew
That though her action
was reckless it was meant pure and true
And screaming he saw
her dive to the sacks down beneath
And he screamed out
her name to the girl out of reach
“No” he screamed
louder as she vanished from sight
And the creatures foul
snapped wildly to bite
He screamed out again
now pinned where he lay
Seeing the night darken
to black from cold gray
And the creature it
turned and sought the girl beneath
Howling and roaring in
pained disbelief
As sack after sack was
swift torn away
The girl rolled and
stood and turned then to say:
“No more”
And the villagers
surged forward with flame and with might
And clove and slashed
and burnt this creature from night
And the scarecrow, the
spider, it howled and it hissed
Surging and stamping and
slashing to resist
The girl saw her
father and took up his axe
And charged at the
scarecrow with relentless attack
The scarecrow was
shrinking and bleeding and afraid
Its stature diminished
as the girls were dragged away
It was hissing and
stamping with fear in its poise
And the man now a
father became once more just a boy
Only this time fear would
be routed and the nights would be shorter
The boy stood and took
the axe the axe from his daughter
And the blows rained
and splintered and severed
And the scarecrow
crumpled and bled into forever
And the daughter saw
her father the brave hearted man
Saw his leg pulsing
blood and he unable to stand
And the girls gone
away now returned found arms
As their parents ran
screaming from their houses and farms
Each girl had not aged
and looked just as they’d been
Each blinked and
stretched now delivered from dreams
Each held to sobbing
parents and received kisses and tears
As each was returned
from their families worst fears
And the father, the
man, the boy collapsed dead away
With a bite in his leg
scorching flesh grey
His daughter she
kissed him and felt skin turn ice
And she turned to her
mother and sister that night
They wept together
over their now dying man
Holding his loved head
and both of his coarse hands
And he blinked one and
saw his wife and his girls
And he coughed and he whispered
“You are my world”
Then breath ceased and
life flickered still
And the sun rose
unknowing as always it will
And the night frost
abated and melted to water
And the wife walked
back home with both of her daughters
And their husband and
father they never forgot
They never buried his
memories or let thoughts of him stop
And often remembered
the night he had fought
And the days he had
toiled and all that he’d taught
And the grief they
kept and turned into more
As they spoke of him
with love ever perfect and pure
The scarecrow the
spider was gone into the flame
The grass burnt beneath
was never the same
It stayed grey and
diseased where nothing now grew
So the villagers encircled
it with fencing as each of them knew
That grief has a home
that must be respected
And that grief, though
painful, must stay connected
Grief and loss so
easily swallow us whole
Tear at our world and
leave punctures and holes
Grief chews and it
gnaws and it bruises and pains
Takes everything clean
and leaves it bitter and stained
But grief is a product
of love and of joy
Of childish wonder that
nothing ever can destroy
The memories of all
things are with us still
As always they have
been and always they will
And those that we’ve
lost who we’ve loved and adored
Should never be closed
off and sealed behind doors
But spoken of and
shared whenever the times right
Appreciated and
venerated and kept in plain sight
Turning from lost love
only feeds savage beast
And talking and loving
are the souls own release
So if to anyone “I
love you” you have said
Then that person’s
memory will never be dead
So the boy now a man
now a father now dead
Was held to the light
with his name often said
And the children of
the village were told of this tale
That love and not fear
should always prevail
And the daughter she
grew and had children of her own
All loved and held
close until she lay under stone
But her children and
grandchildren held her memory plain
Because even in death loves
purity remains
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